The open is usually a time of extreme stress, absolute chaos, and self-doubt for me. It is so easy for me to get caught up in leaderboarding, tediously watching the scores rolling in, trying to figure out what a good score will be and what will keep me in contention. And no,this is not a one day deal either...that is just one aspect of "open worry", next comes the self doubt. It is so easy for me to convince myself that I cannot possibly get a certain number of rounds just because someone who is "better" than me did. I remember last year watching Julie Foucher do 13.5, and because she strategically broke up her thrusters I pretty much had a full break down that I could not possibly hold onto that bar, when I knew I needed to have more time for those C2B pullups...Cj pretty much had to talk me off the ledge that day I was in a full panic about 65lb thrusters!
All of this silly behavior results in me feeling physically and mentally beat up the entire time and even worse by the time the open is actually over! I always vow I'll figure out how to end this awful cycle and make the process fun...but I never knew how until this year!
The 2014 open was by far the most enjoyable open experience for me yet! The week before when I could feel the tension mounting I set aside some time and physically wrote down goals for the open. These goals had nothing to do with what number I wanted to place...and this was hard to conceptualize at first, I mean the open is all about numbers right? WRONG! Here were my goals.
1- Trust yourself, and your body to know your proper pacing!
2- Always full effort, do not let anxiety into the picture...worrying does not change anything, just sucks energy!
3- Remember WHY...you do actually love CrossFit!
4- Enjoy the process and be grateful I can even compete this year!
5-Do not check the leaderboard, put up a good score for YOU...those numbers mean nothing in the grand scheme if you are not satisfied with your personal effort!
Honestly it was hard for me to put these all into play, but I looked at them daily and it became easier and easier as the weeks went by! By trusting myself and my training I had my best open finish yet placing 38th in the Central East region, way higher than years past, and without knowing anyone elses' scores...imagine that ha! I was also able to train consistently and my body is feeling great, cannot wait for regionals!